Confession #3021
I saw someone in a walker standing in the road late at night and
stopped to help her. I gave her a ride to her niece's house. I
didn't tell you because I knew you would lecture me about safety and,
more importantly, you would resent me doing anything to help someone
who isn't a member of our household. You get annoyed if I babysit my
sister's kids, too.
Confession #3022
Dear Husband,
I have been married to you for 15 yrs and I am so bored with you. You have an extremely low sex drive and even viagra doesn't work on you. Pathetic. I keep myself up in every physical way and you are a blob to me. Other men look at me and I wish I could be with some of them. Even just to get intellectually stimulated (which does not happen with you.) This is our second marriage and I am not really young so my dilemma is should I just stay in this marriage with all the insurance benefits Or leave this marriage. The thought of setting up my own computer and getting myself insurance is truly nauseating! Not having to eat dinner alone is a plus and I guess most couples stay in their marriages at this stage life.
Confession #3023
I miss you.
Not the you who, blaming me for everything, walked away from the marriage and lied to his friends and family about why our lives fell apart.
No, I miss the man I married. He was wonderful, and we had a bright future ahead of us. I miss the man who told my best friend that I was the woman he had been waiting for his whole life. I miss the man who promised to grow old with me. I miss the man I adored and who adored me, who loved every little kindness I did for him, and who would have taken a bullet for me. He was a wonderful, kind, sweet, generous, loving man, and I loved him.
I feel like he's gone forever. As though he'll never come back . . . even if you walk back in that door.
Stupid mental disorder. You wouldn't take responsibility for it. You let it win. You let it destroy everything good about you, and then you blamed me for the damage it caused.
I can forgive you for the pain, the hurt, and the damage, but I cannot forgive you for letting it destroy your life, my life, and our marriage. What happened was senseless. We'll both be the poorer for it, and forever wonder what our lives would have been like otherwise. It's not too late--but it will be soon. You can still fix this. Please, wake up and understand what really happened. Please, get a proper therapist who understands your condition. Please, before I'm forced to divorce you. Please, it will soon be too late. Please.
Confession #3024
I have cheated on my husband with my ex-boyfriend through out my ten year marriage. I even had sex with my ex-boyfriend while I was pregnant. I am a horrible wife.
Confession #3025
I am trying hard to fall back in love with you. Please don't fuck it up with explosions of anger or other disappointments.
Confession #3026
We are perfect. We had a nasty issue, and worked it out like adults. We are honest. We are sexy. We live 1700 miles apart. I'm used to the ache now. Once a month is for periods and utility bills, not putting my face in your chest and inhaling like a drowning person breaking the water's surface. I want to do that every day. When you graduate and move here, will it be the same? Or will you look at me across the kitchen and wonder why I haven't left for the airport yet? Have we done so well adjusting to half a continent, that an apartment will feel like a bear trap? These are the things that keep me up at night. I miss you. I love you. I have married you a thousand times already. I just want to know that when we do it for real, you won't miss all the space that the distance between Denver and New York has allowed. I know I wont.
Confession #3027
You tried to retain the same lawyer as me for our divorce. Her name and her firms name were plastered all over the papers you had been served with and you still didn't twig when you "googled" for a lawyer and picked her because she was close to the house. You still didn't twig until she saw your papers when you sat down with her and she had to tell you she was my lawyer. Thanks for confirming yet again why I'm leaving.
Confession #3028
The reason I am fucking him is because he's nice to me. Something that you can't be bothered to do.
I don't feel guilty. I feel empowered.
Confession #3029
You cheated on me a year ago - I cleaned all 3 bathrooms (including YOUR nasty toilet that you hadn't even bothered to flush AGAIN!!) with your toothbrush - now I feel bad that you have had a bad bad sinus infection since I did it - you think I am being so caring when I am trying to get you meds and doctors appointments - It's not so much care as guilt - but think you could have caught so much worse off that skanky homewrecking whore had I not found out when I did - so maybe no more guilt for me!!!
Confession #3030
I started confessing here when my husband began his hamfisted attempts at opening up our marriage. I didn't really want to be with anyone else. Because he wanted it so much, I reluctantly agreed; he proceeded to break his own promises, disrespect our mutual friend, pressure me into a dozen things I hated, surround me with unpleasant surprises and emotional blackmail, and then act completely surprised when I told him I was thinking of divorcing his ass.
And yet we made it through. Counseling helped. That, and the fact that I could see all too well that he really had no intention of being such an asshat. He just had a lot of learning to do.
Do I sound like I'm still angry? I am. I'm angry that the man I married turned out to be a spoiled kid who can't even faintly imagine saying no to himself when he wants something, even knowing that it will hurt me. And I'm angry that I seem to need him in my life anyway.
I'm also still in love with him. He's not just the man who keeps trying to fuck our friends. He's also the man who drove me back and forth to my family's house a hundred times while my father was ill. He's the man who overheard me reminiscing about a song I liked and hunted down the rare album for me. He's the man who looks after me when I walk in my sleep. He puts up with my annoying brother. He takes my cats to the vet.
I didn't make my vows lightly, and neither did he. It's bittersweet. We love each other, and we deserve each other, and we're in this for good.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
True Wife Confession 302 hay bales
Confession #3011
I've slept with 2 of your friends, it was great. I would have felt bad about it but you were having sex with your first cousin.
Confession #3012
have a social etiquette problem...a guy I dated for about 2 years died over the weekend and a few of my friends have gotten in touch with me to let me know or "check-in" on me...with my 3 real friends from that town i can be totally up front and tear that physically, emotionally, and mentally abusing jerkface down like we always do...(what? he was drunk driving on his way to either hook up with some girl he met at the bar or do coke) but with some of people that contact me i feel the need to hide my real feelings and pretend he was some great guy...i have a similar problem with my other dead boyfriend..he died 5 1/2 years ago when i was 19 and we were still dating at the time but it was a bad relationship and either one of us was going to die (lots of first time drug and alcohol experiences going on) or we were going to have a horrible break-up...we are from the same home town so after it first happened i moved to another town where i met the jerkface cause i couldn't deal with being somewhere we had grown up together...now i'm back in my hometown and people are finding me on facebook and asking if i dated the guy who died cause they went to school with him and such...and once again they remember him as this shining example of a man...i remember a drunk, an abuser, a guy with more mommy and daddy issues than i've seen in anyone but my own father...but i say all the nice things...he was great, i miss him everyday...and that's a little true but mostly i remember the crying and the fear and i just thank isis that i'm here and alive and they can't control or hurt me anymore...so i put this here so that the people on myspace and facebook wouldn't think i'm an awful person
Confession #3013
From a Husband:
Why do you feel that just because you think you're cleaner, you are welcome to whine and complain about EVERY little thing! You leave your hairs on the sink for days yet if I shave and leave a few hairs on the counter, I'm a messy person. My hairs take up less space than your head hairs, and tend to sit there less time than yours because I shave only once every couple weeks.
Why do I have to hear about everything the roommate does even though I had nothing to do with it. Why is it that if he is messy, "the guys" made the mess. It's not fair. I didn't marry you for this treatment. I married you because you were a loving woman who cares more about other people than anyone else I know, unless they make a mess. If a mess is made, they may as well have spit on your family name, because they're going to hear about it. I clean up little messes you make and say nothing. You have to make it known every time that you are cleaning my mess. How is that fair. Why do I put up with it? I'm starting to not remember why.
All I want is for you to relax and not be uptight about things. I want you to not blow up at little things. If I do something worthy of it, go ahead, yell, scream, call me names, I deserve it, but if I forgot to clean up something (that you acknowledge I'm doing better at remembering to do now), then drop it. Don't bitch. Don't complain. Just do it. I do it for you.
Stop going to these sites. They don't help you. All they do is make you think that I am doing horrible things by reinforcing a negative image of men and our habits. Women aren't that much better, just different. If I complained as much as you did, you would have done the things I did tonight. You would have said the things I did, called me the names I called you. Stop it. Please. I love you, but you're doing a good job of making it hard for me to do that. I've asked you this before. I know how often you read this site. I'm asking you here. Please stop thinking I'm bad. I'm not. I'm just different and deal with different things than you do. Try taking care of all the things I do. I bet you if we switched rolls, I could continue to clean, you wouldn't have a clue how to do the things I do. How do you fix the computer? Go hook up the new tv we just got (no manuals allowed). Go move the really heavy items that you can't lift. Go DRIVE!!! Go to the grocery store by yourself more than once a month. I usually go atleast 3 times a month by myself. You complain at the thought of it! Call the pizza place on your on for once. I can't even eat it, yet I have to order it for you! Its not my fault I'm allergic to it, but you're doing an amazing job of rubbing it in my face everytime you make me order my favorite food from before I had the allergy. It makes me feel great! It makes me want to jump off a bridge!
And if you really want to continue with it, sure, I'm messy, but you refuse to drive anywhere. You refuse to goto the grocery store by yourself (which is across the street!!!). Aside from going to work, you don't do anything outside of the house unless I take you! I do all the technical things. I deal with EVERYTHING outside the house. Maybe if you dealt with that, I'd be more able and willing to help inside the house. Don't give any excuses for not driving either. You chose to be afraid after my accident. You weren't even in the truck. You were at home, all by yourself, not helping, not doing anything. You weren't involved, yet you're the one that developed a fear of driving! I don't want to hear how unfair I am. It's equal and you refuse to recognize that.
Now, stop being so self righteous and come back down to earth and join me! I love you. I want you. But I want you to be reasonable! If you can't do that, this isn't going to last long. I don't want that.
Confession #3014
When I’m downstairs like this all I can think about is you lying in bed and how much I wish I was by your side. However, I cannot sleep and I don’t want to wake you because I know you need your sleep. Here it is 3am and all I can do is think about you. You are everything I have ever hoped for and dreamed of. I love the way you laugh and joke with me, I love the way you smile when you look at me. I love so many things about you I don’t know if I can list them all.
You know when you leave for work and I’m still in bed, you lean in to kiss me goodbye and you smell so good I just want to pull you back in bed with me and make love to you. You are an amazing lover! So sweet, tender, and unselfish. You actually make me believe that you almost worship my body and that is an incredible feeling.
When you walk in from work and smile at me the way you do, it makes me feel so alive. My heart really does beat faster when I hear the garage door open. It means you are home and will be smiling at me soon. I love that smile that you have, the one that’s just for me.
I love the way you call and tell me you love me, and the way we call each other several times a day just to say hi. It always brightens my day and lets me know you are thinking of me. I am thinking of you too.
I love the talks that we have. Many times we have great discussions that go on for hours and it makes me feel like my input is important to you. I love hearing you talk about anything and everything. Your insight into our lives is something I love hearing about. I love planning our future together, it lets me know you love me and will be around for always. We have such big plans and dreams and I love working towards them with you. I like being your partner in this life.
Without you I don’t know where I would be, probably completely lost, but instead you came into my life and not only saved me, you gave me a better life. I cannot thank you enough for loving me and taking care of me. Thank you for letting me love you and for letting me be who I am and not trying to change who I am. You try to change me for the better and that’s good. You are my champion and always in my corner. I never had that before and I appreciate it. It makes me feel special that someone cares that much about me. You believe in me more than I do.
I really do believe you are a good father. You love our children so much and it shows in everything you do. Sometimes I may disagree with how you go about things, but I cannot deny that your way is more Christ like. You are so caring and patient with me and them, it’s almost unbelievable. But I know it’s true. You put all others above you. You take care of everyone and everything and for that I am extremely grateful.
I have no secrets from you; I know this was not always true. The way you stood by me this past year with my health issues and other problems has been incredible. It’s a true testament to the man that you are. I’m so grateful to your parents for helping to make you the man you are today.
I love that we still have so much love and affection for each other even after all these years. Sometimes I feel like we are still newlyweds and I pray every day that that feeling doesn’t go away. Although I really don’t see it changing and that makes me incredibly happy.
I love you for the man you are and I’m so incredibly amazed that I found someone like you. You are everything to me. My husband, my lover, my best friend, and most of all one day you will be my eternal companion. I cannot wait for that day to come. To know that I will be with you for eternity will make me so incredibly happy! You are a man like no other. You make me feel like there’s no other woman in the world, I love knowing that I’m going to feel like that forever!
Confession #3015
Aint it funny how you ALWAYS blame me for not being "wet enough" and needing to use lube on the VERY rare occasions we do have sex and even then it still hurts and is so pleasureless for me - yet with my lover I am so VERY wet and come EVERY TIME in fact usually more than once!
I married you because I was naive enough to think that because I loved you (which I no longer do) that the sex would get better and it did - just not with you!
Confession #3016
My love,
Though these times may be dark and filled with many hardships and obstacles, I am truly and completely still in love with you. I am in pain everyday, though smiling inside knowing what is possible for us. Sometimes I feel like I would wait for an eternity just to be able to really feel you again. But pray it won't take that long.
Through all of our past difficulties, you were always the one that I held up as my bright shining light, the one who gave of themselves more than anyone and who loved me without selfishness from the bottom of your kind heart. Soon the only truth will be me and you. No more of what has cost us both so much. The only darkness will be behind us, and the passion that we silence will come bursting forth, into reality, never to be lost again.
It is not spoken, but I love you so much baby. I burn for you everyday, I always have and I always will. My heart won't rest until you can feel that for real.
Confession #3017
To my fantastically new husband;
I checked your text messages today and I feel horrible about it. I know why I did it too; not because I don't trust you, not because I think you are cheating on me (despite the fact that we haven't had sex in two weeks because of my impending due date and ever expanding stomach), and not because you did anything to provoke me to go digging... but because MY EX was so slimy and horrible that I had to check his text messages to see if I needed to get checked for STD's at my next DR appointment. Which I did, EVERY TIME. I wish I knew of a way to erase the past and forget about my selfish, slimy, self centered, nasty, horrible ex husband. I wish I had met you first. You are so good to me and wonderful and I am so excited to be starting a family with you and I wish, I WISH, you were my only husband, instead of my second. I know that we will be happy together for the long haul... as long as I can curb my need to snoop. A need I never had before the EX. I am so sorry I checked your texts (which were wonderfully boring) and I hope I never have to opportunity to do so again. So please don't forget your phone at home when you go to work anymore. Thank you. I love you more than you'll ever know.
Your shameful new wife
Confession #3018
You sit there and put on a pretty show for other people, but I know the real you. The one that won't do laundry, or anything with your kids, or clean house. I have to do everything around here except make dinner and run the dishwasher. You won't mop, or clean a bathroom, or clean up the desk. All this, and unemployed too. While I work full time and am still taking care of the house.
I cheated 5 years ago, and I'm seriously considering it again. The reason the last time I cheated was because I was being ignored. Guess what? Your doing it again. You refuse to talk about anything, and when I try, you get pissed. So where does that leave me? Writing a confession while you're probably busy playing your damn game, yet again.
Confession #3019
Very little irritates me about you but for the love of Goddess can we not chuck out the boxes of unopened software you worked on 10 years ago? I mean we're not using it, it doesn't have your name on it saying "QAed by So and So"
Confession #3020
I confessed in the early days, I confessed in the middle days and I confessed fairly recently. The spirit of the confessions started as silly little secrets kept from the husband. ( The stroller is bent because I backed over it with the car.) Quickly we jumped to I am sleeping around, I want to sleep around, I hate you, I dip your toothbrush in the toilet, etc. I stopped confessing because I felt better about my relationship, my good feelings aren't secrets; I tell my husband that I love him. I think misery loves company. I read the confessions when I was unhappy; I could feel companionship because others felt the same way. Or I could tell myself things aren't as bad as ####. The comments sections get downright nasty sometimes, or they did. I don't read the comments anymore. I don't care what other people say about my confession. I just feel better to have gotten off my chest.
And honey, I really hate the way you cook the bacon. I like my bacon crispy.
I've slept with 2 of your friends, it was great. I would have felt bad about it but you were having sex with your first cousin.
Confession #3012
have a social etiquette problem...a guy I dated for about 2 years died over the weekend and a few of my friends have gotten in touch with me to let me know or "check-in" on me...with my 3 real friends from that town i can be totally up front and tear that physically, emotionally, and mentally abusing jerkface down like we always do...(what? he was drunk driving on his way to either hook up with some girl he met at the bar or do coke) but with some of people that contact me i feel the need to hide my real feelings and pretend he was some great guy...i have a similar problem with my other dead boyfriend..he died 5 1/2 years ago when i was 19 and we were still dating at the time but it was a bad relationship and either one of us was going to die (lots of first time drug and alcohol experiences going on) or we were going to have a horrible break-up...we are from the same home town so after it first happened i moved to another town where i met the jerkface cause i couldn't deal with being somewhere we had grown up together...now i'm back in my hometown and people are finding me on facebook and asking if i dated the guy who died cause they went to school with him and such...and once again they remember him as this shining example of a man...i remember a drunk, an abuser, a guy with more mommy and daddy issues than i've seen in anyone but my own father...but i say all the nice things...he was great, i miss him everyday...and that's a little true but mostly i remember the crying and the fear and i just thank isis that i'm here and alive and they can't control or hurt me anymore...so i put this here so that the people on myspace and facebook wouldn't think i'm an awful person
Confession #3013
From a Husband:
Why do you feel that just because you think you're cleaner, you are welcome to whine and complain about EVERY little thing! You leave your hairs on the sink for days yet if I shave and leave a few hairs on the counter, I'm a messy person. My hairs take up less space than your head hairs, and tend to sit there less time than yours because I shave only once every couple weeks.
Why do I have to hear about everything the roommate does even though I had nothing to do with it. Why is it that if he is messy, "the guys" made the mess. It's not fair. I didn't marry you for this treatment. I married you because you were a loving woman who cares more about other people than anyone else I know, unless they make a mess. If a mess is made, they may as well have spit on your family name, because they're going to hear about it. I clean up little messes you make and say nothing. You have to make it known every time that you are cleaning my mess. How is that fair. Why do I put up with it? I'm starting to not remember why.
All I want is for you to relax and not be uptight about things. I want you to not blow up at little things. If I do something worthy of it, go ahead, yell, scream, call me names, I deserve it, but if I forgot to clean up something (that you acknowledge I'm doing better at remembering to do now), then drop it. Don't bitch. Don't complain. Just do it. I do it for you.
Stop going to these sites. They don't help you. All they do is make you think that I am doing horrible things by reinforcing a negative image of men and our habits. Women aren't that much better, just different. If I complained as much as you did, you would have done the things I did tonight. You would have said the things I did, called me the names I called you. Stop it. Please. I love you, but you're doing a good job of making it hard for me to do that. I've asked you this before. I know how often you read this site. I'm asking you here. Please stop thinking I'm bad. I'm not. I'm just different and deal with different things than you do. Try taking care of all the things I do. I bet you if we switched rolls, I could continue to clean, you wouldn't have a clue how to do the things I do. How do you fix the computer? Go hook up the new tv we just got (no manuals allowed). Go move the really heavy items that you can't lift. Go DRIVE!!! Go to the grocery store by yourself more than once a month. I usually go atleast 3 times a month by myself. You complain at the thought of it! Call the pizza place on your on for once. I can't even eat it, yet I have to order it for you! Its not my fault I'm allergic to it, but you're doing an amazing job of rubbing it in my face everytime you make me order my favorite food from before I had the allergy. It makes me feel great! It makes me want to jump off a bridge!
And if you really want to continue with it, sure, I'm messy, but you refuse to drive anywhere. You refuse to goto the grocery store by yourself (which is across the street!!!). Aside from going to work, you don't do anything outside of the house unless I take you! I do all the technical things. I deal with EVERYTHING outside the house. Maybe if you dealt with that, I'd be more able and willing to help inside the house. Don't give any excuses for not driving either. You chose to be afraid after my accident. You weren't even in the truck. You were at home, all by yourself, not helping, not doing anything. You weren't involved, yet you're the one that developed a fear of driving! I don't want to hear how unfair I am. It's equal and you refuse to recognize that.
Now, stop being so self righteous and come back down to earth and join me! I love you. I want you. But I want you to be reasonable! If you can't do that, this isn't going to last long. I don't want that.
Confession #3014
When I’m downstairs like this all I can think about is you lying in bed and how much I wish I was by your side. However, I cannot sleep and I don’t want to wake you because I know you need your sleep. Here it is 3am and all I can do is think about you. You are everything I have ever hoped for and dreamed of. I love the way you laugh and joke with me, I love the way you smile when you look at me. I love so many things about you I don’t know if I can list them all.
You know when you leave for work and I’m still in bed, you lean in to kiss me goodbye and you smell so good I just want to pull you back in bed with me and make love to you. You are an amazing lover! So sweet, tender, and unselfish. You actually make me believe that you almost worship my body and that is an incredible feeling.
When you walk in from work and smile at me the way you do, it makes me feel so alive. My heart really does beat faster when I hear the garage door open. It means you are home and will be smiling at me soon. I love that smile that you have, the one that’s just for me.
I love the way you call and tell me you love me, and the way we call each other several times a day just to say hi. It always brightens my day and lets me know you are thinking of me. I am thinking of you too.
I love the talks that we have. Many times we have great discussions that go on for hours and it makes me feel like my input is important to you. I love hearing you talk about anything and everything. Your insight into our lives is something I love hearing about. I love planning our future together, it lets me know you love me and will be around for always. We have such big plans and dreams and I love working towards them with you. I like being your partner in this life.
Without you I don’t know where I would be, probably completely lost, but instead you came into my life and not only saved me, you gave me a better life. I cannot thank you enough for loving me and taking care of me. Thank you for letting me love you and for letting me be who I am and not trying to change who I am. You try to change me for the better and that’s good. You are my champion and always in my corner. I never had that before and I appreciate it. It makes me feel special that someone cares that much about me. You believe in me more than I do.
I really do believe you are a good father. You love our children so much and it shows in everything you do. Sometimes I may disagree with how you go about things, but I cannot deny that your way is more Christ like. You are so caring and patient with me and them, it’s almost unbelievable. But I know it’s true. You put all others above you. You take care of everyone and everything and for that I am extremely grateful.
I have no secrets from you; I know this was not always true. The way you stood by me this past year with my health issues and other problems has been incredible. It’s a true testament to the man that you are. I’m so grateful to your parents for helping to make you the man you are today.
I love that we still have so much love and affection for each other even after all these years. Sometimes I feel like we are still newlyweds and I pray every day that that feeling doesn’t go away. Although I really don’t see it changing and that makes me incredibly happy.
I love you for the man you are and I’m so incredibly amazed that I found someone like you. You are everything to me. My husband, my lover, my best friend, and most of all one day you will be my eternal companion. I cannot wait for that day to come. To know that I will be with you for eternity will make me so incredibly happy! You are a man like no other. You make me feel like there’s no other woman in the world, I love knowing that I’m going to feel like that forever!
Confession #3015
Aint it funny how you ALWAYS blame me for not being "wet enough" and needing to use lube on the VERY rare occasions we do have sex and even then it still hurts and is so pleasureless for me - yet with my lover I am so VERY wet and come EVERY TIME in fact usually more than once!
I married you because I was naive enough to think that because I loved you (which I no longer do) that the sex would get better and it did - just not with you!
Confession #3016
My love,
Though these times may be dark and filled with many hardships and obstacles, I am truly and completely still in love with you. I am in pain everyday, though smiling inside knowing what is possible for us. Sometimes I feel like I would wait for an eternity just to be able to really feel you again. But pray it won't take that long.
Through all of our past difficulties, you were always the one that I held up as my bright shining light, the one who gave of themselves more than anyone and who loved me without selfishness from the bottom of your kind heart. Soon the only truth will be me and you. No more of what has cost us both so much. The only darkness will be behind us, and the passion that we silence will come bursting forth, into reality, never to be lost again.
It is not spoken, but I love you so much baby. I burn for you everyday, I always have and I always will. My heart won't rest until you can feel that for real.
Confession #3017
To my fantastically new husband;
I checked your text messages today and I feel horrible about it. I know why I did it too; not because I don't trust you, not because I think you are cheating on me (despite the fact that we haven't had sex in two weeks because of my impending due date and ever expanding stomach), and not because you did anything to provoke me to go digging... but because MY EX was so slimy and horrible that I had to check his text messages to see if I needed to get checked for STD's at my next DR appointment. Which I did, EVERY TIME. I wish I knew of a way to erase the past and forget about my selfish, slimy, self centered, nasty, horrible ex husband. I wish I had met you first. You are so good to me and wonderful and I am so excited to be starting a family with you and I wish, I WISH, you were my only husband, instead of my second. I know that we will be happy together for the long haul... as long as I can curb my need to snoop. A need I never had before the EX. I am so sorry I checked your texts (which were wonderfully boring) and I hope I never have to opportunity to do so again. So please don't forget your phone at home when you go to work anymore. Thank you. I love you more than you'll ever know.
Your shameful new wife
Confession #3018
You sit there and put on a pretty show for other people, but I know the real you. The one that won't do laundry, or anything with your kids, or clean house. I have to do everything around here except make dinner and run the dishwasher. You won't mop, or clean a bathroom, or clean up the desk. All this, and unemployed too. While I work full time and am still taking care of the house.
I cheated 5 years ago, and I'm seriously considering it again. The reason the last time I cheated was because I was being ignored. Guess what? Your doing it again. You refuse to talk about anything, and when I try, you get pissed. So where does that leave me? Writing a confession while you're probably busy playing your damn game, yet again.
Confession #3019
Very little irritates me about you but for the love of Goddess can we not chuck out the boxes of unopened software you worked on 10 years ago? I mean we're not using it, it doesn't have your name on it saying "QAed by So and So"
Confession #3020
I confessed in the early days, I confessed in the middle days and I confessed fairly recently. The spirit of the confessions started as silly little secrets kept from the husband. ( The stroller is bent because I backed over it with the car.) Quickly we jumped to I am sleeping around, I want to sleep around, I hate you, I dip your toothbrush in the toilet, etc. I stopped confessing because I felt better about my relationship, my good feelings aren't secrets; I tell my husband that I love him. I think misery loves company. I read the confessions when I was unhappy; I could feel companionship because others felt the same way. Or I could tell myself things aren't as bad as ####. The comments sections get downright nasty sometimes, or they did. I don't read the comments anymore. I don't care what other people say about my confession. I just feel better to have gotten off my chest.
And honey, I really hate the way you cook the bacon. I like my bacon crispy.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Lessons Learned
Recently, one of the readers left a comment that has lingered in my mind.
What happened? From the first confessions to the present day ones - What happened?
Would anyone care to update us? Me?
Share with us your lessons - good, bad or indifferent.
In the mean time, spread the word about TWC - Confessions have been slow as of late, so if you've been thinking about sending one in - now is the time.
What happened? From the first confessions to the present day ones - What happened?
Would anyone care to update us? Me?
Share with us your lessons - good, bad or indifferent.
In the mean time, spread the word about TWC - Confessions have been slow as of late, so if you've been thinking about sending one in - now is the time.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
True Wife Confession 301 Redirect
Confession #3001
To my mother:
Yes, yes I am marrying him, whether you like it or not. I don't CARE that you think my ex-husband was more likeable, if you like him so much, he's now available. Stop making my father miserable and marry him yourself, why don't you? Then you'll find out what it is to live with Mr. Perfect. He's perfectly lazy, and he's only affectionate when he wants laid. But because he kissed YOUR ass, I should have stayed married to him. Well, I'm marrying someone who kisses MY ass this time. I learned my lesson. And you and my grandmother can keep giving him the stink eye because you think he's mean for asking my kids to mind, and you can both whisper about the two of us and you can keep pitying my ex for all I care. Nothing in my life hurt me more than half of my family bailing on me because they didn't approve of my divorce, but I've come out the other side stronger and better for it. You'd better watch it--I realized I deserved better than my ex, and I got it, and I might just decide my kids and I deserve better than you all, too. I'm tired of your opinions clouding my joy and excitement at my impending wedding, so I've basically cut you off. I can finish the job and stop talking to you completely if you'd like. Or you can start being a MOTHER and wish me well and help me plan and be happy for me. It's probably too late to ask you to start doing that at this late date, though. You haven't wanted to be my mother for 28 years, why would you start now?
Love,
Me
Confession #3002
I think I am falling in love with your best friend who has also become one of my best friends. For the moment, it is lust.
I have known him just as long as I have known you. I always swore I wouldn't ever develop feelings for him; I didn't think I could have feelings for him. I didn't know then, but I know now. I was lying to myself. I don't view him as a better provider, more understanding of me, or more sexy. In my mind, you two are equal. Both driven, hard workers; but he always seems more passionate. Maybe its because he's "forbidden fruit", but since our group went out recently, I cannot stop thinking of him. Maybe I have such strong desires towards him because he's open to trying new things, because he will try to learn a new skill for me and I'm not even his wife, let alone girlfriend. He knew how much the lessons would mean to me, and he's excited about them too.
There's the one one factor that differentiates the two of you...he's passionate. I've never cheated on you, ever. So how do I know he is this way? When we shared a dance, I felt a sexiness come over me. I'm sure it overcame him too, at least I hope it did. I wanted him to want me just like I wanted him. It was a feeling I haven't felt through your hands in months, years...I can't stop thinking of how hot dancing with him was...in the middle of everyone, a very crowded club, it felt as if we were the only ones who mattered. I know he felt the same way. Our first dance was mild and to your liking, but after a bit, I locked hands with him and began to guide his hands over my body. It felt incredible. Almost voyeuristic. Mostly, he danced with me from behind. We moved in tandem, bodies grinding together, my hands guiding his hands over my body. I held him tightly, wanting more, pulling him closer to me. That is why I became infuriated with you when you told me I had to leave with you right then. I even thought of him while I pleased myself last night. Its terrible I know, but I want to experience him. To feel his hands gliding over my bare body...I shiver just thinking of it.
I don't know when I developed feelings for him. I don't know why, either. You are a decent lover and an incredible man most of the time, but I feel neglected on some occasions. I'm finding its more often than not I don't "get mine", but you always get yours. This is pushing me towards him more. We started talking more often while you were away earlier this month. We talk every day. He came over each evening to keep me company while you were away. Nothing happened, you know what happens in our home. We've talked about our dancing, and we both agree it was some of the most erotic memories that neither of us will let go. I try to flirt with him and there are times I believe he tries to reciprocate the gesture without being too obvious. I want him to reciprocate. I want him to think about me when we're not together. I want him to want me just as passionately as I want him. My whole being is telling me this is wrong. I know my feelings just need to run their course. I will eventually get over him. I know it...I always do. But until I am done with this lust, I will continue to think of how incredibly sexy he made me feel. We will be dancing together next weekend. We will do it again every time you are away. Both of us will enjoy it to the fullest extent...I hope I can keep myself on my own two feet and not my back.
Confession #3003
You are trying and I really don't want to. After a beautiful 2 1/2 year old daughter and a distance and unhappiness that is just as old. I opened the door because I wanted out, and now you want back in. I think I might be falling in love with someone else. With a kiss that I felt to my very core. Your intentions are honorable and heart felt. Mine are out of obligation to the daughter we wanted together. I don't hate you. I respect you and who you are and who you want us to be. I don't think I can be that with you anymore. It makes me sick to think of hurting you and breaking our family. But how can I be an asset to the family if I am just not happy for the simple fact that I am not in love with you anymore? You are a good dad. You are a good provider. You are loyal. We let this go on too long and I think that it is too late for me. That is my confession.
Confession #3004
I wish you would make me and our marriage a priority.
Stop planning your next poker party. All you do is talk about how big your dick is. And I think you fail to mention to the guys that it doesn't work.
Confession #3005
I know I shouldn't want you as much as I do. You're married, but I want you now more then ever. I want you to know that I'm okay with you wanting to be good and not wanting me now. What hurt the most is when you threw in the "It's not just you, I want to do things with other women to but I have to be good." Even now when I see you, my heart jumps wishing and hoping for something that will never be.
Confession #3006
Dear sweety,
I love you and you're my best friend and we'll be together for always. But you are by far the strangest man I've ever met.
It's been over 3 months since we had sex. With me getting sick, and then you, and then the kids, and then you again with menstrual cycles shoved into the mix I can understand.
But there we were- the kids were in bed and asleep. Your cold is gone. I'm not menstruating. And you pop up to play your game. Ok sure, if I wanted sex I should've pounced on you. But yesterday, and today you gave me all your signs that let me know- get ready, cause later it's you and me.
And then.... nothing. What man in his right mind doesn't have sex with his wife for 3 fucking months then doesn't pounce on her the second he can? Do you not like having sex with me? I've asked you that before and you assure me time and time again that's not the case and then you'll give me the excuses I listed above (sickness, etc). But come on! What man isn't counting the days until we can? What man doesn't want to have a quicky with his wife while the kids are up? I mean they're watching their cartoons! We've been having this same fight. And the day you have sex with me as many times as, or more than you masturbate- I wouldn't feel like shit.
I'd understand an affair- that would be an excuse. But you're not and I know you never will. So my only conclusion would be that you don't want to have sex with me. What the hell is wrong with you?
Confession #3007
We were getting ready to go for a few days away at the cottage. I was fed up with his "me-me" attitude, yes, he is an Aries and has been like that since I met him. Anyway, so we were cleaning up the house and we (meaning I) was also trying to get the kids, 2 years and 2 months to sleep.
When I was released from the hospital 2 months earlier, after having my second son, I was given a prescription for Oxycodone and since I am not a pill taker, he always begs me for mine every weekend until the bottle is gone. Anyway, this night I gave him one and he left it on the fridge.
I got so irritated and finally had it that I took the pill back (lied when he asked me if I took it), lol, "Why would I take it? You must've knocked it on the floor." So, he even moved the fridge to look behind it for the pill. Really? Really is the affects of the pill THAT important??? Come on.
Then I did something naughty (for my standards anyway), he sleeps sometimes in my son's bed when both boys co-sleep with me. Well on this night that's what the plan was. I wanted him to feel uncomfy since he was being such a total ASS that day, so I took a dixie cup full of water and dumped it under the comforter on the sheets of the twin bed.
Kids went to sleep in our bed. I went to sleep too. About 2 hours later, my hubby went to sleep by himself in our eldest son's bed. All I heard for a straight 5 minutes was, "...shit, hell, Jesus, what the hell, shit..." I woke up to that and man that was music to my ears.
I went through both pregnancies with him being such a whiny fucking ass, doing this stupid childish thing made payback feel so right. I fell asleep with a smile on my face. Ahhhhh.
Oh and next day he asked me about the bed being wet. "Jeez, dear, I have no idea. Might've been the cat."
Confession #3008
I love my husband. I do. He treats me well, I know he loves me. But I didn't get much of a chance to experience many other guys. So lately, when I'm having super hot sex with my husband, I'm imagining it's the coworker with whom I have become extremely flirtatious. I hate myself.
Confession #3009
I always feel like I am cheating a little when I give you a blowjob..because I don't really swallow everything. I kind of let about half of it fall back out of my mouth and onto you. You never seem to notice and god knows you have never complained, but I feel like I am cheating you out of a "real" blowjob if I don't swallow everything.
Confession #3010
So soon now he'll be back in my arms! My heart is light and I always have a smile on my face. Just you wait my love, it'll be a time you never forget!
To my mother:
Yes, yes I am marrying him, whether you like it or not. I don't CARE that you think my ex-husband was more likeable, if you like him so much, he's now available. Stop making my father miserable and marry him yourself, why don't you? Then you'll find out what it is to live with Mr. Perfect. He's perfectly lazy, and he's only affectionate when he wants laid. But because he kissed YOUR ass, I should have stayed married to him. Well, I'm marrying someone who kisses MY ass this time. I learned my lesson. And you and my grandmother can keep giving him the stink eye because you think he's mean for asking my kids to mind, and you can both whisper about the two of us and you can keep pitying my ex for all I care. Nothing in my life hurt me more than half of my family bailing on me because they didn't approve of my divorce, but I've come out the other side stronger and better for it. You'd better watch it--I realized I deserved better than my ex, and I got it, and I might just decide my kids and I deserve better than you all, too. I'm tired of your opinions clouding my joy and excitement at my impending wedding, so I've basically cut you off. I can finish the job and stop talking to you completely if you'd like. Or you can start being a MOTHER and wish me well and help me plan and be happy for me. It's probably too late to ask you to start doing that at this late date, though. You haven't wanted to be my mother for 28 years, why would you start now?
Love,
Me
Confession #3002
I think I am falling in love with your best friend who has also become one of my best friends. For the moment, it is lust.
I have known him just as long as I have known you. I always swore I wouldn't ever develop feelings for him; I didn't think I could have feelings for him. I didn't know then, but I know now. I was lying to myself. I don't view him as a better provider, more understanding of me, or more sexy. In my mind, you two are equal. Both driven, hard workers; but he always seems more passionate. Maybe its because he's "forbidden fruit", but since our group went out recently, I cannot stop thinking of him. Maybe I have such strong desires towards him because he's open to trying new things, because he will try to learn a new skill for me and I'm not even his wife, let alone girlfriend. He knew how much the lessons would mean to me, and he's excited about them too.
There's the one one factor that differentiates the two of you...he's passionate. I've never cheated on you, ever. So how do I know he is this way? When we shared a dance, I felt a sexiness come over me. I'm sure it overcame him too, at least I hope it did. I wanted him to want me just like I wanted him. It was a feeling I haven't felt through your hands in months, years...I can't stop thinking of how hot dancing with him was...in the middle of everyone, a very crowded club, it felt as if we were the only ones who mattered. I know he felt the same way. Our first dance was mild and to your liking, but after a bit, I locked hands with him and began to guide his hands over my body. It felt incredible. Almost voyeuristic. Mostly, he danced with me from behind. We moved in tandem, bodies grinding together, my hands guiding his hands over my body. I held him tightly, wanting more, pulling him closer to me. That is why I became infuriated with you when you told me I had to leave with you right then. I even thought of him while I pleased myself last night. Its terrible I know, but I want to experience him. To feel his hands gliding over my bare body...I shiver just thinking of it.
I don't know when I developed feelings for him. I don't know why, either. You are a decent lover and an incredible man most of the time, but I feel neglected on some occasions. I'm finding its more often than not I don't "get mine", but you always get yours. This is pushing me towards him more. We started talking more often while you were away earlier this month. We talk every day. He came over each evening to keep me company while you were away. Nothing happened, you know what happens in our home. We've talked about our dancing, and we both agree it was some of the most erotic memories that neither of us will let go. I try to flirt with him and there are times I believe he tries to reciprocate the gesture without being too obvious. I want him to reciprocate. I want him to think about me when we're not together. I want him to want me just as passionately as I want him. My whole being is telling me this is wrong. I know my feelings just need to run their course. I will eventually get over him. I know it...I always do. But until I am done with this lust, I will continue to think of how incredibly sexy he made me feel. We will be dancing together next weekend. We will do it again every time you are away. Both of us will enjoy it to the fullest extent...I hope I can keep myself on my own two feet and not my back.
Confession #3003
You are trying and I really don't want to. After a beautiful 2 1/2 year old daughter and a distance and unhappiness that is just as old. I opened the door because I wanted out, and now you want back in. I think I might be falling in love with someone else. With a kiss that I felt to my very core. Your intentions are honorable and heart felt. Mine are out of obligation to the daughter we wanted together. I don't hate you. I respect you and who you are and who you want us to be. I don't think I can be that with you anymore. It makes me sick to think of hurting you and breaking our family. But how can I be an asset to the family if I am just not happy for the simple fact that I am not in love with you anymore? You are a good dad. You are a good provider. You are loyal. We let this go on too long and I think that it is too late for me. That is my confession.
Confession #3004
I wish you would make me and our marriage a priority.
Stop planning your next poker party. All you do is talk about how big your dick is. And I think you fail to mention to the guys that it doesn't work.
Confession #3005
I know I shouldn't want you as much as I do. You're married, but I want you now more then ever. I want you to know that I'm okay with you wanting to be good and not wanting me now. What hurt the most is when you threw in the "It's not just you, I want to do things with other women to but I have to be good." Even now when I see you, my heart jumps wishing and hoping for something that will never be.
Confession #3006
Dear sweety,
I love you and you're my best friend and we'll be together for always. But you are by far the strangest man I've ever met.
It's been over 3 months since we had sex. With me getting sick, and then you, and then the kids, and then you again with menstrual cycles shoved into the mix I can understand.
But there we were- the kids were in bed and asleep. Your cold is gone. I'm not menstruating. And you pop up to play your game. Ok sure, if I wanted sex I should've pounced on you. But yesterday, and today you gave me all your signs that let me know- get ready, cause later it's you and me.
And then.... nothing. What man in his right mind doesn't have sex with his wife for 3 fucking months then doesn't pounce on her the second he can? Do you not like having sex with me? I've asked you that before and you assure me time and time again that's not the case and then you'll give me the excuses I listed above (sickness, etc). But come on! What man isn't counting the days until we can? What man doesn't want to have a quicky with his wife while the kids are up? I mean they're watching their cartoons! We've been having this same fight. And the day you have sex with me as many times as, or more than you masturbate- I wouldn't feel like shit.
I'd understand an affair- that would be an excuse. But you're not and I know you never will. So my only conclusion would be that you don't want to have sex with me. What the hell is wrong with you?
Confession #3007
We were getting ready to go for a few days away at the cottage. I was fed up with his "me-me" attitude, yes, he is an Aries and has been like that since I met him. Anyway, so we were cleaning up the house and we (meaning I) was also trying to get the kids, 2 years and 2 months to sleep.
When I was released from the hospital 2 months earlier, after having my second son, I was given a prescription for Oxycodone and since I am not a pill taker, he always begs me for mine every weekend until the bottle is gone. Anyway, this night I gave him one and he left it on the fridge.
I got so irritated and finally had it that I took the pill back (lied when he asked me if I took it), lol, "Why would I take it? You must've knocked it on the floor." So, he even moved the fridge to look behind it for the pill. Really? Really is the affects of the pill THAT important??? Come on.
Then I did something naughty (for my standards anyway), he sleeps sometimes in my son's bed when both boys co-sleep with me. Well on this night that's what the plan was. I wanted him to feel uncomfy since he was being such a total ASS that day, so I took a dixie cup full of water and dumped it under the comforter on the sheets of the twin bed.
Kids went to sleep in our bed. I went to sleep too. About 2 hours later, my hubby went to sleep by himself in our eldest son's bed. All I heard for a straight 5 minutes was, "...shit, hell, Jesus, what the hell, shit..." I woke up to that and man that was music to my ears.
I went through both pregnancies with him being such a whiny fucking ass, doing this stupid childish thing made payback feel so right. I fell asleep with a smile on my face. Ahhhhh.
Oh and next day he asked me about the bed being wet. "Jeez, dear, I have no idea. Might've been the cat."
Confession #3008
I love my husband. I do. He treats me well, I know he loves me. But I didn't get much of a chance to experience many other guys. So lately, when I'm having super hot sex with my husband, I'm imagining it's the coworker with whom I have become extremely flirtatious. I hate myself.
Confession #3009
I always feel like I am cheating a little when I give you a blowjob..because I don't really swallow everything. I kind of let about half of it fall back out of my mouth and onto you. You never seem to notice and god knows you have never complained, but I feel like I am cheating you out of a "real" blowjob if I don't swallow everything.
Confession #3010
So soon now he'll be back in my arms! My heart is light and I always have a smile on my face. Just you wait my love, it'll be a time you never forget!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Let me Guess - she dumped you?
There is a political blog I love which does their "Hate Mail" every Saturday. I love the Hate Mail Saturdays as it makes any hate mail I get feel so tame in comparison ( and it is, really). This, however, popped into my inbox a couple days ago, and I felt it was a shame to Not share this unedited, unchanged Love:
IF MEN ARE WOLVES, THEN LADIES STOP BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEMED, LOW STANDARD, FAST AND EASY PICKINGS. SOME OF YOU LOOK LIKE A THREE-LEGGED GAZELLE DIPPED IN MANGO SAUCE, RUNNING ACROSS THE FIELD IN SLOW MOTION. HAVE SOME CLASS AND BECOME A LIONESS! I AIN'T NEVER SEEN NO WOLF GO ANYWHERE NEAR NO LIONESS! Y'ALL NEED TO STOP LETTING LITTLE BOYS LAY UP ON Y'ALL, PLAYING MADDEN AND HOUSE-SITTING ALL DAY. SOME OF YOU WORK SO HARD TO KEEP HIM AT HOME; BUY HIM A CAR IN YOUR NAME, GIVE HIM A CELL PHONE IN YOUR NAME, HE DONT PAY NO BILLS FOR THE HOUSE IN YOUR NAME...DO Y'ALL REALLY BELIEVE THATS WHAT IT TAKES TO KEEP A MAN? SOME OF YOU WOMEN ARE WORST THAN THE OVERBEARING MOTHERS THAT SPOILED HIM AND MADE HIM SORRY IN THE FIRST PLACE! AFTER Y'ALL DONE HAD ENOUGH OF THAT, THEN YOU WANNA PUT ALL MEN IN THE SAME BOAT AND THINK ABOUT CROSSING OVER...IM PRETTY SURE IT WOULD TAKE A WHOLE PACK OF WOLVES TO ATTACK A LIONESS, BUT EVEN IF THAT HAPPENS, THAT LIONESS AIN'T GONNA LOSE HER SEXUALITY! THAS RIGHT, BEING A VICTIM OF THE WRONG KIND OF MEN DOESN'T MAKE IT RIGHT FOR YOU TO JUMP SIDES! LONG STORY SHORT, IF YOU'RE WANDERING AROUND NOT USING YOUR GOD GIVEN INSTINCTS, AIN'T GOT NO PERSONAL GOALS, NO KIND OF CAREER, MAKING BABIES TO PASS THE TIME, AND SITTING AROUND WAITING FOR SOME MAN TO TAKE CARE OF YOU, THEN PREPARE TO BE DEVOURED BY MORE THAN JUST A WOLF! FURTHERMORE, THESE SO CALLED "FEMALE PARTNERS" Y'ALL CALL YOURSELVES TURNING TO, SEE YOU AS AN EASY TARGET AS WELL, I MEAN, WHICH IS WORSE, BEING EATEN ALIVE BY A MALE OR A FEMALE WOLF...IT'S SAD, BUT WHEN U THINK ABOUT IT, U KNOW SOME HEFFAS RIGHT NOW THAT SHOULD BE READING THIS!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
True Wife Confessions Numbah 19, Numbah 19
Confession #181
All those times I said I wasn't happy with our marriage? I really meant those. It was NOT a time of the month thing, I have outgrown you. Did I ever think I'd cheat on you? No. Am I ? Yes. And I don't feel guilty because I am finally feeling like a successful, appreciated, caring, talented woman that someone adores. All those nights I'm with you, I'm thinking of him. And if I go away to visit a friend or take a long afternoon shopping, I'm not where you think I am. And you are so spineless I wonder if you found out, if you'd even do anything about it. I have a feeling you'd let it occur right under your nose just so I wouldn't leave you
Confession #182
Why won’t I have sex you? The correct question is why would I ?
Confession #183
When you fall asleep watching TV on the sofa, I run upstairs to the computer and type very quietly with the lights off, so I don't wake you. If you do wake up, I shut off the monitor and quickly hop into bed, so that you think I haven't been on the computer all night.
Confession #184
My worst fear is that one morning you'll wake up and realize that you are too good for me and that I don't deserve you. But I never fear that you will leave me, because you have been nothing but a wonderful husband and father to our child. I know you will never do anything to hurt us. You really are my hero.
Confession #185
If you make a promise, keep it. I keep mine. If you don't have what it takes to be a man of your word, don't run your mouth.
Stop expecting me to feel sorry for you with all of your ailments. They are all self-inflicted. Yes, that's what happens when you don't brush your teeth or have good hygiene. You're not fooling anybody, everyone else knows that too.
I no longer have an interest in getting you off because you show no interest in getting me off.
Yes, you have a job. Get over it. Everyone has to work. Either change careers or stop whining and complaining. Guess what? Everyone you're complaining to just came from work too!
If you don't start to address the projects around the house that need your attention, I will call someone and have it taken care of. I don't care if it IS what you do.
If buying me gifts for the holidays is such a problem, don't do it anymore. I'll take the cash. I can't take another holiday of you waiting until the last minute to shop and coming home with things I never asked for because that's all you could find in the last 10 minutes the store was open.
I know I didn't marry Romeo BUT after nearly 20 years you do have to spring for a getaway at some point. If you choose not to again when our 20th anniversary rolls around, I will plan my own getaway and leave you at home, alone.
Yes, you have a problem gambling when you spend as much time doing that as you do working.
Please try to remember that there are other people around you. They have feelings too. Treat others like you would like to be treated. The world does not revolve around you.
Confession #186
I have never loved you.....I only married you because I was afraid I'd be alone forever. I wish I would have known that being married to you would make me feel more alone than ever...
Confession #187
I read your emails, all of them. Even the ones you don't think I know about
Confession #188
I watch porn occasionally, not because I am sick or twisted or have some sort of fetish. I watch it, because I figure at least the porn stars are getting some...more often than I am. I only dream sex could be that good and lengthy.
Confession #189
The mornings when you let me sleep in while you take care of the child win you more points than just about anything else you could do.
Confession #190
You are a whiny bitch on family trips and when we have company. I miss having a social life that involves you.
All those times I said I wasn't happy with our marriage? I really meant those. It was NOT a time of the month thing, I have outgrown you. Did I ever think I'd cheat on you? No. Am I ? Yes. And I don't feel guilty because I am finally feeling like a successful, appreciated, caring, talented woman that someone adores. All those nights I'm with you, I'm thinking of him. And if I go away to visit a friend or take a long afternoon shopping, I'm not where you think I am. And you are so spineless I wonder if you found out, if you'd even do anything about it. I have a feeling you'd let it occur right under your nose just so I wouldn't leave you
Confession #182
Why won’t I have sex you? The correct question is why would I ?
Confession #183
When you fall asleep watching TV on the sofa, I run upstairs to the computer and type very quietly with the lights off, so I don't wake you. If you do wake up, I shut off the monitor and quickly hop into bed, so that you think I haven't been on the computer all night.
Confession #184
My worst fear is that one morning you'll wake up and realize that you are too good for me and that I don't deserve you. But I never fear that you will leave me, because you have been nothing but a wonderful husband and father to our child. I know you will never do anything to hurt us. You really are my hero.
Confession #185
If you make a promise, keep it. I keep mine. If you don't have what it takes to be a man of your word, don't run your mouth.
Stop expecting me to feel sorry for you with all of your ailments. They are all self-inflicted. Yes, that's what happens when you don't brush your teeth or have good hygiene. You're not fooling anybody, everyone else knows that too.
I no longer have an interest in getting you off because you show no interest in getting me off.
Yes, you have a job. Get over it. Everyone has to work. Either change careers or stop whining and complaining. Guess what? Everyone you're complaining to just came from work too!
If you don't start to address the projects around the house that need your attention, I will call someone and have it taken care of. I don't care if it IS what you do.
If buying me gifts for the holidays is such a problem, don't do it anymore. I'll take the cash. I can't take another holiday of you waiting until the last minute to shop and coming home with things I never asked for because that's all you could find in the last 10 minutes the store was open.
I know I didn't marry Romeo BUT after nearly 20 years you do have to spring for a getaway at some point. If you choose not to again when our 20th anniversary rolls around, I will plan my own getaway and leave you at home, alone.
Yes, you have a problem gambling when you spend as much time doing that as you do working.
Please try to remember that there are other people around you. They have feelings too. Treat others like you would like to be treated. The world does not revolve around you.
Confession #186
I have never loved you.....I only married you because I was afraid I'd be alone forever. I wish I would have known that being married to you would make me feel more alone than ever...
Confession #187
I read your emails, all of them. Even the ones you don't think I know about
Confession #188
I watch porn occasionally, not because I am sick or twisted or have some sort of fetish. I watch it, because I figure at least the porn stars are getting some...more often than I am. I only dream sex could be that good and lengthy.
Confession #189
The mornings when you let me sleep in while you take care of the child win you more points than just about anything else you could do.
Confession #190
You are a whiny bitch on family trips and when we have company. I miss having a social life that involves you.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
True Wife Confession 300 - Prepare for Glory!
Confessions # 2991
Yet another night in hell. I wish you would understand how much your drinking is killing our marriage, our dreams.. How much lower you set the bar for our children. I wish I could leave you and to never hear from you again. You are a disease that infects everything. I am tired of you "sorry"s, should've, could've or other times about your "justifying" your drinking and your 3am or 4am escapades. While you're out "relaxing" with friends, I am home 24/7 with our 10month old and our 2 year old and it's not easy at all. I rather be single and struggling than with you and surviving.. I hate the fact that you're fat, that you don't take care of yourself, that you do drugs, that you drink, that you suck in bed, that you BREATHE! I feel I lost 12 years of my life wasting my time with you. Yes YOU pay the bills now, YOU are working, well just so you know, my work right now is 10 times harder than yours raising 2 kids BY MYSELF , and let's not forget, when I was working I made twice the money that you bring in now and if it wasn't for me and my direction, we would have never had everything we have today. You wouldn't have vacation house in Europe to bloody brag about to your alcoholic low life white trash friends, you wouldn't have a clue about the world.. you would have been just like all others in your branch- just a simple alcoholic. You would have never traveled the world and seen the things we've seen.. you would have never probably had a passport for God's sake. I should have never married you, I should have never gave you 5 minutes of my life. Damn you! Now I am stuck here, away from my country, from my friends from my family. I gave up everything for YOU!!! And this is what it turns out to be... I hate you!
Confessions # 2992
Know how we have all this junk around the house we don't want anymore? Know how I listed those 2 big bookshelves my mother GAVE us 6 years ago on Craigslist for $100? Know how I lugged them out onto the front porch by myself? Know how I took $50 for them? Know how you just sat on your ass during this process? Know how when I told you I got $50 you got pissed at me and said I got scammed?
Know what? Fuck you. You want crap out of this house, you figure it out.
Of course, if we die in this place in 15 years the authorities will have to dig us out of the massive piles of rubble because you won't do shit to get rid of anything.
Confessions # 2993
You had quite the balls of steel when you announced that you weren't taking part in dinner tonight, so your daughter and I could eat on our own - then turned around and asked me for my debit card so you could order pizza.
Didn't think I would say no, did you?
Confessions # 2994
I live for the day that you will not make me feel stupid when doing something to help you. Keep in mind that I do not live with you yet so be happy when I help with your dishes, dinner, etc. and don't criticize me while doing it. Your way is not always better and you are by no means perfect. Honestly I do not know how I can ever live with you--your OCD is rediculous. Also the fact that our kids do not like each other and you ignore my son is a serious issue. You've lost the passion in your eyes for me and if it doesn't come back, I'm gone. I'm about to walk away, and when I do you will wish that you tried a little harder to keep me!
Confessions # 2995
I know we have agreed to alternate the days we clean out the litter box but while you're at work I just deodorize it and add a little more litter so really you are the only one to clean the litter box.
Confessions # 2996
You said you would always be there for me. You said you loved me. Is love bringing another woman and her child into our home and carrying on a relationship with her? I put up with it for 4 years. Don't ask me why I did it for so long. I think I figured she would get sick of you and leave. But she didn't. I finally got the courage to leave you! I am not in your life anymore, so you can't control me, but yet you try. It is NONE of your business if I have money, nor what I spend it on. I don't care if you can't buy groceries, that is NOT my problem. You think buying the kids some school supplies makes it all better. For the $100 you spent, I spent an additional $390 on the rest of their school supplies, their shoes, their clothes. Who is paying for their bussing and their school fees? Not you. That's for sure. Yet you think you can make me feel bad that you have no money. Too bad. You made your bed, you can sleep in it.
I am trying to be nice for the sake of the kids, but you make it hard because you still try and control me. Try and control what I write, what I tell others, what I spend my money on. Keep it up, and things aren't going to be so nice.
I am much happier now that I am free. Thank you for letting me realize that you didn't make me happy.
Confessions # 2997
After almost 20 years, you have finally learned how to make a good cup of coffee. Thank You!
Confessions # 2998
I know that you are the best thing that has happened to me in probably my entire life...but where where you 25 years ago? Why are you so good to me? You are so gentle,so sweet..you know what I have done since my marriage ended...the men that I have used and yet you are still there for me.Why??
Only one problem...you have no sex drive.When we do make love it feels like I am molesting you.Why are you so passive? This is something that I can't do for much longer.I know you love me but you are forcing me to look outside our relationship for sex and it is killing me.I am 45 years old and in my prime dude....I want and crave YOU, please,please feel the same way or I am gone.
Confessions # 2999
I don't like who ever you become when we have houseguests. That guy who appears in front of other people? I HATE that guy. Stop it. Your friends love you for You and I always have loved you for you, so please don't drive us away with that miserable bastard.
Confessions # 3000
Having you call me every day during my vacation to complain about the animals? Suck it the fuck up. Who did you think was cleaning litter and feeding and cleaning? My 51 week a year job gives me Zero sympathy for your 1 week job.
Yet another night in hell. I wish you would understand how much your drinking is killing our marriage, our dreams.. How much lower you set the bar for our children. I wish I could leave you and to never hear from you again. You are a disease that infects everything. I am tired of you "sorry"s, should've, could've or other times about your "justifying" your drinking and your 3am or 4am escapades. While you're out "relaxing" with friends, I am home 24/7 with our 10month old and our 2 year old and it's not easy at all. I rather be single and struggling than with you and surviving.. I hate the fact that you're fat, that you don't take care of yourself, that you do drugs, that you drink, that you suck in bed, that you BREATHE! I feel I lost 12 years of my life wasting my time with you. Yes YOU pay the bills now, YOU are working, well just so you know, my work right now is 10 times harder than yours raising 2 kids BY MYSELF , and let's not forget, when I was working I made twice the money that you bring in now and if it wasn't for me and my direction, we would have never had everything we have today. You wouldn't have vacation house in Europe to bloody brag about to your alcoholic low life white trash friends, you wouldn't have a clue about the world.. you would have been just like all others in your branch- just a simple alcoholic. You would have never traveled the world and seen the things we've seen.. you would have never probably had a passport for God's sake. I should have never married you, I should have never gave you 5 minutes of my life. Damn you! Now I am stuck here, away from my country, from my friends from my family. I gave up everything for YOU!!! And this is what it turns out to be... I hate you!
Confessions # 2992
Know how we have all this junk around the house we don't want anymore? Know how I listed those 2 big bookshelves my mother GAVE us 6 years ago on Craigslist for $100? Know how I lugged them out onto the front porch by myself? Know how I took $50 for them? Know how you just sat on your ass during this process? Know how when I told you I got $50 you got pissed at me and said I got scammed?
Know what? Fuck you. You want crap out of this house, you figure it out.
Of course, if we die in this place in 15 years the authorities will have to dig us out of the massive piles of rubble because you won't do shit to get rid of anything.
Confessions # 2993
You had quite the balls of steel when you announced that you weren't taking part in dinner tonight, so your daughter and I could eat on our own - then turned around and asked me for my debit card so you could order pizza.
Didn't think I would say no, did you?
Confessions # 2994
I live for the day that you will not make me feel stupid when doing something to help you. Keep in mind that I do not live with you yet so be happy when I help with your dishes, dinner, etc. and don't criticize me while doing it. Your way is not always better and you are by no means perfect. Honestly I do not know how I can ever live with you--your OCD is rediculous. Also the fact that our kids do not like each other and you ignore my son is a serious issue. You've lost the passion in your eyes for me and if it doesn't come back, I'm gone. I'm about to walk away, and when I do you will wish that you tried a little harder to keep me!
Confessions # 2995
I know we have agreed to alternate the days we clean out the litter box but while you're at work I just deodorize it and add a little more litter so really you are the only one to clean the litter box.
Confessions # 2996
You said you would always be there for me. You said you loved me. Is love bringing another woman and her child into our home and carrying on a relationship with her? I put up with it for 4 years. Don't ask me why I did it for so long. I think I figured she would get sick of you and leave. But she didn't. I finally got the courage to leave you! I am not in your life anymore, so you can't control me, but yet you try. It is NONE of your business if I have money, nor what I spend it on. I don't care if you can't buy groceries, that is NOT my problem. You think buying the kids some school supplies makes it all better. For the $100 you spent, I spent an additional $390 on the rest of their school supplies, their shoes, their clothes. Who is paying for their bussing and their school fees? Not you. That's for sure. Yet you think you can make me feel bad that you have no money. Too bad. You made your bed, you can sleep in it.
I am trying to be nice for the sake of the kids, but you make it hard because you still try and control me. Try and control what I write, what I tell others, what I spend my money on. Keep it up, and things aren't going to be so nice.
I am much happier now that I am free. Thank you for letting me realize that you didn't make me happy.
Confessions # 2997
After almost 20 years, you have finally learned how to make a good cup of coffee. Thank You!
Confessions # 2998
I know that you are the best thing that has happened to me in probably my entire life...but where where you 25 years ago? Why are you so good to me? You are so gentle,so sweet..you know what I have done since my marriage ended...the men that I have used and yet you are still there for me.Why??
Only one problem...you have no sex drive.When we do make love it feels like I am molesting you.Why are you so passive? This is something that I can't do for much longer.I know you love me but you are forcing me to look outside our relationship for sex and it is killing me.I am 45 years old and in my prime dude....I want and crave YOU, please,please feel the same way or I am gone.
Confessions # 2999
I don't like who ever you become when we have houseguests. That guy who appears in front of other people? I HATE that guy. Stop it. Your friends love you for You and I always have loved you for you, so please don't drive us away with that miserable bastard.
Confessions # 3000
Having you call me every day during my vacation to complain about the animals? Suck it the fuck up. Who did you think was cleaning litter and feeding and cleaning? My 51 week a year job gives me Zero sympathy for your 1 week job.
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